Friday, November 6, 2009

Scandy, but great


Please enjoy one of the greatest poems I've laid eyes on for quite some time.

Purity - Billy Collins

My favourite time to write is in the late afternoon,
weekdays, particularly Wednesdays.
This is how I go about it:
I take a fresh pot of tea into my study and close the door.
Then I remove my clothes and leave them in a pile
as if I had melted to death and my legacy consisted of only
a white shirt, a pair of pants and a pot of cold tea.

Then I remove my flesh and hang it over a chair.
I slide it off my bones like a silken garment.
I do this so that what I write will be pure,
completely rinsed of the carnal,
uncontaminated by the preoccupations of the body.

Finally I remove each of my organs and arrange them
on a small table near the window.
I do not want to hear their ancient rhythms
when I am trying to tap out my own drumbeat.

Now I sit down at the desk, ready to begin.
I am entirely pure: nothing but a skeleton at a typewriter.

I should mention that sometimes I leave my penis on.
I find it difficult to ignore the temptation.
Then I am a skeleton with a penis at a typewriter.

In this condition I write extraordinary love poems,
mostly of them exploiting the connection between sex and death.

I am concentration itself: I exist in a universe
where there is nothing but sex, death, and typewriting.

After a spell of this I remove my penis too.
Then I am all skull and bones typing into the afternoon.
Just the absolute essentials, no flounces.
Now I write only about death, most classical of themes,
in language light as the air between my ribs.

Afterward, I reward myself by going for a drive at sunset.
I replace my organs and slip back into my flesh
and clothes. Then I back the car out of the garage
and speed through woods on winding country roads,
passing stone walls, farmhouses, and frozen ponds,
all perfectly arranged like words in a famous sonnet.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Restored.

OMG. I can NOT wait for this day. It give me chills and makes me tap my feet.

Revelation 21:1-7

Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. 2I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband.

3And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. 4He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."

5He who was seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!" Then he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true."

6He said to me: "It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To him who is thirsty I will give to drink without cost from the spring of the water of life. He who overcomes will inherit all this, and I will be his God and he will be my son.

Isaiah 35:10

"And the ransomed of the LORD will return And come with joyful shouting to Zion, With everlasting joy upon their heads. They will find gladness and joy, And sorrow and sighing will flee away."

Literally.... hallelujah.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Things.

Happenings in my life as of late:

  • New phone. Loving it, and loving having a phone in general after being w/out one for a few weeks.
  • Discovered the BEST Mango Sorbet at Fresh&Easy for $2.... made my day.
  • Mono is almost gone! Praise Jesus, I should be released to normal activity this week {fingers crossed} which still means I'll be a zombie for a while longer, but still.
  • Countdown {18 days} till Thanksgiving in glorious Oregon for SEVEN WHOLE DAYS.
  • Since we're counting down, countdown to see Shane at home in glorious Oregon {22 days}
  • Cocoa Butter lotion... genius
  • My job... still great, still fun, still love to do it.
  • School is ridiculous as usual and I'm realizing more and more how horrible I am at design, and how I can't wait to start my photo emphasis next semester.
  • The desire to do nothing but sit on my couch and look online at amazing images all day, several times this weekend I have done this for hours at a time... not so helpful for the productivity, but great for the creative imagination.
  • Can't wait to start doing yoga again after Mono's over.
  • Pretty soon I'll be helping to lead a high school girl's Bible study with the girls at my church, can't wait for that. Saturday mornings spent at Starbucks with some growing Goldly gals, sounds pretty great. I wish I'd had that in high school.
  • Electronica and folk music are becoming an ever present part of my audio life, no complaints here.
  • Since September I have finished all: 10 seasons of Friends, 2 Seasons of Gossip Girl and am now starting The OC season again... woah. Thank God we don't have real television, I'd be hosed.
  • I'm realizing God pretty much always knows what he's doing and I just need to get the heck outta the way.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

A few of my favorite things...

Best friend/Halloween time was splendid, as to be expected.
Involving: mexican food, pumpkin flavored froyo {heaven}, too much candy, a viewing of My Blueberry Nights, OC Season 2, couch crashing, best girl bonding.

Morning after almost just as good: once a year McGriddle's run {always make the run together to fulfill our once yearly McDonald's fix}, followed by more candy, OC, and girl bonding. G.R.E.A.T.

In other news, my dearest Emily's engagement shoot went wonderfully! I haven't given her the photos yet, but heres a sneak of a few of my faves...





Saturday, October 31, 2009

Pies, pumpkins and talented people


Last night was one of Biola's most delicious traditions... Punk 'n' Pie Talent Show.

A night of talent, entertainment, pumpkin pie and the nostalgia of fall.

My staff has been putting it together for a few weeks and it was greaaat to finally see it all come together. This was the first year it was outside on our Administration building's lawn, and it was a huge success. Every other year it has been in our cramped auditorium and squeaky old stadium seats. This year was bring your own blanket and sprawl out wherever you can, it was wonderful.

Myself and Katie, another girl on staff, were the event's MC's. Neither of us having hosted any event before, were nervous and had no idea what to do, but it turned out to be so much fun, I would totally do it again.

The acts were greaaaat. Including solo artists, our dance team, indie-tastic fellah's singing about Pokeman {and an AMAZING cover of "My Girl" by Animal Collective} and a techno rave to the super mario brothers complete with glowsticks for the crowd and many more...it was a well rounded and high energy event.

The winning act {and rightfully so} was a group of guys. The main guy was dressed as Abe Lincoln and said the Gettysburg address, dramatically, from memory and then the song "Proud to Be an American" came on and tons of "American" men came from the audience dressed as: homeless men, construction workers, farmers, policemen, mailmen, cowboys, indians, bikers, baseball fan and all american came on stage doing amazingly bad/great choreography and lots of fist pumps in the air, waving a giant flag in the background and singing at the top of their lungs.

I. was. rolling. So deserved the win. Most hilarous part... 4 of them live next door to me, classic.

One of the greatest MC moments...
We were having technical difficulties with one of the acts so we had seen this dude in a gorilla suit earlier, so we called him out and brought him upstage.... with a slow clap. Epic. In addition to all of the other ridiculous things we said in nervousness/eagerness to fill awkward silences. So great.
I don't have many pics yet, but heres one of Katie and I.


In other news...
I took my lovely friend Emily and her fiance Tony's engagement pictures today and it was so so fun! And now I will be editing pictures like a kid in a candy store for the rest of the night.

IN ADDITION to having a massive junk food/girls night in Halloween with ze best friend, Danae. Mmmmm.

Friday, October 30, 2009

Hill Tumbling

I was walking back from class this morning and passed by a particularly lovely grassy hill on campus that is usually unoccupied. Well today, there were about 20 tiny tots rolling down the hill, screaming, flirting, bumbling and giggling and I was this close to joining them.

I smiled at one of the girls and she said "hi" and waived at me. I talked to her for a minute and asked what they were doin and they were on a field trip. That's all, just a field trip. And according to my new gal pal, she was having "a ton o' fun at Wyola! I wanna go here too!" My heart was all tingly and warm envying their life of college campus romping, hill tumbling and bookstore browsing on a Friday afternoon.

Oh to be 7 again, such bliss. A little glimpse down nostalgia lane was all I needed to make me yet again greatful for my childhood, and for where I am now.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

It's days like today...

... that get me super pumped for heaven.

I didn't have a particularly bad day today, just an average day.

A day like a million other days I've spent, living my life, day to day.

Because it's all I've ever known how to do.


I just can't wait for the fact that in heaven I won't ever wake up tired.

I won't ever have to do homework, take tests or go to class.

I won't ever have to save money to buy things, or to even have to deal with the whole mess of money in general.

I won't ever have to say goodbye to the ones I care about. Just constant continued conversations.

I won't ever have to get sick, be late, or have to apologize for something I've done or haven't done.

I won't ever have to impress anyone or feel guilty about the things I'm not doing that I should be doing.

I won't ever judge anyone or look down upon those I subconsciously deem lesser than myself. So stupid.

I won't ever get cold, get lost while driving somewhere, stutter because I talk way too fast, or have to do my hair.

I won't ever have to fool others into thinking I'm smart, cool, hip or whatever it is I'm trying to prove at one time or another.

I won't have to read about celebrities and deem the ridiculous things they do as a point of interest.

I won't have to just sit and wonder what in the world I'm supposed to do with my life. It will be done, I will have learned, I will be content, and I will be relieved.


I'll never have to be anything other than in the presence of God and do nothing but praise the crap outta Him.

And it's day's like today that I can't wait to meet Jesus.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Great Weekend? Check.


Shane came to visit this past Thursday through Sunday.
It was glorious.
We ate good food and treats, watched movies, he met my friends and church, we saw art, went to the beach and spent way to much time pestering each other. All in all, it was stupendous because after 12 weeks, we got to be together again.
Now just 4 more... no sweat.

In other news, I most likely gave him Mono and he gave me a cold. Awesome.



Thursday, October 22, 2009

Learning to suffer

This week at good ol' Biola is the Torrey Conference. This year's focus is on suffering, personally, and globally. It's been a really encouraging time to seek God amidst suffering, even though my sufferings are barely comparable to the amount of pain, darkness and anguish throughout the world, but it's still comforting to seek God and let Him sit with me in my suffering. This has been a Psalm of David I have been returning to and sitting in with God.

Psalm 5
Give ear to my words, O LORD,
consider my sighing.

Listen to my cry for help,
my King and my God,
for to you I pray.

In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice;
in the morning I lay my requests before you
and wait in expectation.

You are not a God who takes pleasure in evil;
with you the wicked cannot dwell.

The arrogant cannot stand in your presence;
you hate all who do wrong.

You destroy those who tell lies;
bloodthirsty and deceitful men
the LORD abhors.

But I, by your great mercy,
will come into your house;
in reverence will I bow down
toward your holy temple.

Lead me, O LORD, in your righteousness
because of my enemies—
make straight your way before me.

Not a word from their mouth can be trusted;
their heart is filled with destruction.
Their throat is an open grave;
with their tongue they speak deceit.

Declare them guilty, O God!
Let their intrigues be their downfall.
Banish them for their many sins,
for they have rebelled against you.

But let all who take refuge in you be glad;
let them ever sing for joy.
Spread your protection over them,
that those who love your name may rejoice in you.

For surely, O LORD, you bless the righteous;
you surround them with your favor as with a shield.

boyfriend o'clock

i get to see my man todaaaaaay!

please be excited.