Woah...

I may have just overcame my largest emotional hurdle. SHOOT. It feels so crazy to have it out of my life and heart. I've been holding on to a broken friendship that ended horribly and has been hanging in the balance from a few years ago, and with an odd turn of events, spoke with that friend today and it is officially done. I don't really know what to do with myself. That sounds way more pathetic than I intend it to. I just realized that even though, in my heart of hearts I thought I had forgiven them, I was bitterly clinging to that hurt, by a quickly fraying thread. And tonight, after many tears, prayers, phone calls to my mother, sister, and close friend, I am free. I literally feel so light and at peace. I wish it would've ended differently, oh man do I... I hate it when I know people I care about are upset. But I know that it is part of God's constantly unwinding plan before my eyes. He is good, and would never lead me into something without bringing me out, better, stronger and more loving than when I entered.