feel

how i feel about God

how i feel about creating art {comes naturally}

how i feel about the future {wide open}

how i feel about introspection

how i feel about growing up {i never will}

how i feel about life currently

how i feel about my faith and Christianity as a whole

how i feel about the world today

how i feel about travel

how i feel about heaven {breathtaking}

how i feel about the distance between washington and california

how i feel about the importance of perception

how i feel about school {currently, not always}

how i feel about the importance of imagination

i've been feeling a lot through photos lately.

this is such a remarkable thing, and an affirmation that this is finally what i am supposed to do with my life.

so great to make it here.

to know my purpose and to work ever more fervently towards it.

creatures and dancers

For my Digital Tools class, we just learned how to use Adobe Illustrator and our first task was to create 20 bugs/creatures/monsters within the program and present them in a creative way.

So, I hand drew {via computer} these 20 little creatures based on the popular stuffed animals, UglyDolls. They turned out pretty true to form and took about 8-9 hours to create due to the process of Illustrator using tons of layers, vector points and individual manipulations.

Woah, lots of work. And I cut them out and displayed them in a shoe box, trying to simulate the big collecting project from elementary school where you collect bugs and stick pins in them, and put them I'm a shoe box. Shootin for nostalgia.

Here are the creatures, please enjoy their oddities.

In other news...

- Shane Claiborne, author, Christian revolutionary activist is speaking at Biola tonight. I'm a fan of his books, his life and his attitude so I'm stoked to hear him speak tonight.

- This weekend is the lovely Emily Leechman's {soon to be Mrs. Koinis} bridal/lingerie shower. Shannon and I are embarking on a scandalous lingerie quest this weekend. Couldn't be more excited.

- EIGHT days till lots of brisk weather, lots of hugs, lots of scarves and warm beverages, lots of family, lots of food, lots of pictures, lots of rest and lots of merriment.

P.S. This video is fantastic. I came across it while doing a video project for 4D and I can't stop watching it. And soon realized that I must include it in my project.

Please enjoy it's oddities as well.

true confession

at this very moment i am watching season 3 of The OC in bed, eating Nutella and drinking Simply Orange with Pineapple, winding down from a long day and trying to gain motivation from simple girlish pleasures. thanks wednesday, you've treated me well.

in other news...

- thanksgiving countdown: NINE days

- boyfriend countdown: 14 days

-its $1 boba week at bobaya....there goes 10ish dollars and 5ish more pounds {woooorth it}

- Dashboard Confessionals new album is out and in my ipod on repeat.

- may or may not have made THE best christmas mix of all time.

- there are a million mysterious fruit flies reproducing in our apartment. why why whyyy?

- i am OFFICIALLY a photography emphasis {formerly a design emphasis} and could NOT be happier about it!

netflix for art.

For Web Design:

- Had to create a company, a coupon, a banner, and two parts of a site with a specific theme and based upon the libraries we created previously of all the components that make up a site.

My company:

- Abundant Art, basically Netflix for art, which would be awesome if it were real. Pretty much renting art, keeping it as long as you like, sending it back and getting the next one in your line up, or even purchasing it if you can't part with it.

Pretty cool, eh? I thought so too.

forgive the frenzy of fotos....

... i frequently feel florescent and frisky when i find frames of film that i fancy.

Eye candy

Here are some sweet pics i've been enjoying as of late...

In other news....

-Dashboard Confessional's new album Alter the Ending comes out on Tuesday. Yum.

-Thanksgiving countdown: 14 days

-Boyfriend countdown: 17 days

- I am getting restless due to too much work and not enough play.

Scandy, but great

Please enjoy one of the greatest poems I've laid eyes on for quite some time.

Purity - Billy Collins

My favourite time to write is in the late afternoon,

weekdays, particularly Wednesdays.

This is how I go about it:

I take a fresh pot of tea into my study and close the door.

Then I remove my clothes and leave them in a pile

as if I had melted to death and my legacy consisted of only

a white shirt, a pair of pants and a pot of cold tea.

Then I remove my flesh and hang it over a chair.

I slide it off my bones like a silken garment.

I do this so that what I write will be pure,

completely rinsed of the carnal,

uncontaminated by the preoccupations of the body.

Finally I remove each of my organs and arrange them

on a small table near the window.

I do not want to hear their ancient rhythms

when I am trying to tap out my own drumbeat.

Now I sit down at the desk, ready to begin.

I am entirely pure: nothing but a skeleton at a typewriter.

I should mention that sometimes I leave my penis on.

I find it difficult to ignore the temptation.

Then I am a skeleton with a penis at a typewriter.

In this condition I write extraordinary love poems,

mostly of them exploiting the connection between sex and death.

I am concentration itself: I exist in a universe

where there is nothing but sex, death, and typewriting.

After a spell of this I remove my penis too.

Then I am all skull and bones typing into the afternoon.

Just the absolute essentials, no flounces.

Now I write only about death, most classical of themes,

in language light as the air between my ribs.

Afterward, I reward myself by going for a drive at sunset.

I replace my organs and slip back into my flesh

and clothes. Then I back the car out of the garage

and speed through woods on winding country roads,

passing stone walls, farmhouses, and frozen ponds,

all perfectly arranged like words in a famous sonnet.

Restored.

OMG. I can NOT wait for this day. It give me chills and makes me tap my feet.

Revelation 21:1-7

Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. ²I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband.

³And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. ⁴He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."

⁵He who was seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!" Then he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true."

⁶He said to me: "It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To him who is thirsty I will give to drink without cost from the spring of the water of life. He who overcomes will inherit all this, and I will be his God and he will be my son.

Isaiah 35:10

"And the ransomed of the LORD will return And come with joyful shouting to Zion, With everlasting joy upon their heads. They will find gladness and joy, And sorrow and sighing will flee away."

Literally.... hallelujah.

Things.

Happenings in my life as of late:

• New phone. Loving it, and loving having a phone in general after being w/out one for a few weeks.

• Discovered the BEST Mango Sorbet at Fresh&Easy for $2.... made my day.

• Mono is almost gone! Praise Jesus, I should be released to normal activity this week {fingers crossed} which still means I'll be a zombie for a while longer, but still.

• Countdown {18 days} till Thanksgiving in glorious Oregon for SEVEN WHOLE DAYS.

• Since we're counting down, countdown to see Shane at home in glorious Oregon {22 days}

• Cocoa Butter lotion... genius

• My job... still great, still fun, still love to do it.

• School is ridiculous as usual and I'm realizing more and more how horrible I am at design, and how I can't wait to start my photo emphasis next semester.

• The desire to do nothing but sit on my couch and look online at amazing images all day, several times this weekend I have done this for hours at a time... not so helpful for the productivity, but great for the creative imagination.

• Can't wait to start doing yoga again after Mono's over.

• Pretty soon I'll be helping to lead a high school girl's Bible study with the girls at my church, can't wait for that. Saturday mornings spent at Starbucks with some growing Goldly gals, sounds pretty great. I wish I'd had that in high school.

• Electronica and folk music are becoming an ever present part of my audio life, no complaints here.

• Since September I have finished all: 10 seasons of Friends, 2 Seasons of Gossip Girl and am now starting The OC season again... woah. Thank God we don't have real television, I'd be hosed.

• I'm realizing God pretty much always knows what he's doing and I just need to get the heck outta the way.

A few of my favorite things...

Best friend/Halloween time was splendid, as to be expected.

Involving: mexican food, pumpkin flavored froyo {heaven}, too much candy, a viewing of My Blueberry Nights, OC Season 2, couch crashing, best girl bonding.

Morning after almost just as good: once a year McGriddle's run {always make the run together to fulfill our once yearly McDonald's fix}, followed by more candy, OC, and girl bonding. G.R.E.A.T.

In other news, my dearest Emily's engagement shoot went wonderfully! I haven't given her the photos yet, but heres a sneak of a few of my faves...